Thursday, March 30, 2006

Read jwen's blog and found out she's still freaking mad about that sickening gathering. Well, i'm the one who's in the wrong dress code and i am also shortlisted in the nottocall list, and also the attitudeproblem list, and the shorttempered list and many more..
But probably it has become my habit, that whatever she does, doesnt bother me too much. I just find it a lil disgusting maybe more than a little.
Okay, my bday just passed. Though i would say its okay that she,or rather they dont wish me happy birthday. but i'm still bothered by it lah. i know its no big deal, and ppl might find me ridiculous being bothered by these small lil things. but it still bothers. try lah, and see if it will bother you if your friend of 6yr, and 2yrs didnt wish you.
I just hate to think of her.
I'm not mad, either am i depressed or super upset.
it has somehow became my routine, that i'm not supposed to get mad over things like that. honestly speaking, she sorta tamed me. sounds like a animal, but i was more bad-tempered and a very rash person. but with her good attitude, mild-temper, nice and friendly personality, i have no choice but hold my temper. i find it a bit fake though, my attitude shows all my mood. if i'm really unhappy, nothing will really cheer me up. so its not hard to see if i dislike you or not. anyway, my reputation hasnt been gd all this while, so it doesnt matter if ppl find me bad or evil ,whatever. i dont really care anymore. its really sickening to see some good tempered ppl pretending to be fine and nice and friendly.
i'm not sure what i'm doing now and if i'm using good english or if she reads abt it, cause i doubt she bothers anyway. i guess its the me now, nothing can make me real mad. even that gathering didnt make me mad, just feel like grumbling. thats all.
so, making me cry is much more easier than making me mad now. ha.
welcome the new Vans.

Thanks angela yeo! for rmbering my bday. +) love you lots.